Oh gosh, I haven't written in this journal in weeks! I probably have loads I could have written about, but Mother has been keeping me busy and Meghan never leaves me alone, even though she says I follow her around all the time. I don't, she always comes to find me and then sits down as if she doesn't care and starts talking about something ridiculous like how Father doesn't love her anymore because he's never home, or how Mother hasn't given enough parties and how is she supposed to find eligible men if we don't entertain. Honestly, Meghan! Father not being home has nothing to do with her, and Mother is not about to throw parties without Father here to host them, it just isn't done. She knows that, she just wants attention.
Andy's party was brilliant, her dress was so pretty, and her necklace looked like it belonged to a queen or something. It was a bitEven if Luc
I'm not really sure what I'm going to do this summer. I don't really want to go home, 'cause Imogen might be there, but where else am I gonna go? I mean, Mum'll be at home, and I guess she might want to criticise see me, but it's more likely that her and Father just want to keep an eye on me so I don't taint the family honour or ruin our name or something. Merlin forbid I go down the same path as Patch, they'd never forgive me.
I mean, I don't really care, but they're my family and I don't get another one, and they're the people who're supposed to look after me, and no one else is going to, so I guess I just have to make the best of it.
As soon as I can, I'm dropping History of Magic. It's possibly more boring that listening to my Grandfather talk about the 'good old times'.
I think I'm finally catching up though, with everything that I missed. And my class don't seem to hate me have started to talk to me, which is really nice.
[Protected from Patch and Meghan]
Nightmares are still happening though, but at least I'm not waking anyone up. Except myself, of course, but I can deal with that. Meghan actually talks to me, not like a little kid, but actually like a person. I mean, I don't see her much, but I do sometimes, and it's nice.
My classes are going ok. I think maybe one of the teachers said something to my classmates, 'cause they're all being really nice. And they all know about...well, about me being in the hospital wing. I think no one really knows what happened. Which is better, I guess. I've got so much work to catch up on, but I have lots of time to myself now, so it's not too bad. It's kind of nice to be back in the normal world classes.
Patrick, I don't know what you've done, but Father is mad. I'm not to talk to you anymore, and this is just to let you know that Father said you can't hide from your family and your destiny forever. I'm not sure what he meant, but he said you would. Don't bother replying, I won't write back. [Private]
So apparently I'm getting a surprise! Vesta and the others said I was to meet them out behind the greenhouses tomorrow afternoon, and then I'd properly be one of them! But I can't tell anyone else, it's a secret. I can't wait, it's so nice to fit in somewhere and to have actual friends and not just people who stare at me and talk about me. Even though...well, I'm just going to forget that other thing, with the girl. I can't do anything to help her, not anything more. I hope one of the professors got that note I charmed into the staff room though. At least if they know the hex, they can fix her, right? I'm sure she'll be fine. I've had to stop talking about her, 'cause Vesta started to get annoyed. I mean, I suppose that's fair enough. Maybe she feels bad too, but I doubt it. She's too tough to feel bad.
Sometimes I wish I was more like her. Life would be easier if I didn't feel as much or think about things so much. That's when I start to feel crap and Vesta has to shove me out of it. I don't know what I would do without a friend like her. Even if she scares me a little sometimes. I'm sure I'll get used to her, especially when I'm properly one them. Oh, I can't wait!
Does anyone know how Diana that fourth year girl is? Is she..is she going to be ok? I don't know her or anything, just..well, that was kind of awful, what happened to her, and I got worried. Is she ok?